Giving is easy, I enjoy it.
But it seems I have lost the art of receiving. It is very hard for anyone to give anything to me, be it physical, mental, material or spiritual.
I am hard work for people I know.
Its like I gave up on thinking or feeling that any one could or should give anything to me. Not out of arrogance that I am better than anyone else and their gifts or their praise or whatever, but, tragically I felt I was undeserving.
Around my siblings I would act like I wasn't there even, they had permisson from me to carry on as if I was invisible, so that I would not be a bother to them, its so sad, sometimes I cry about it.
With feet firmly on the ground - reach for the stars!
Monday, 24 October 2011
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Wake up in the morning, say, 'Please give me the courage, patience and strength to get through this day' and then say 'I am ready to receive'.....
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